humbled

"Look on everyone who is proud and bring [her] low

and tread down the wicked where they stand."

- Job 40:12

This morning, I wrote an e-mail to one of my accountability partners. I doubt many people read my blog, so if you are reading this right now, I believe it is no mistake. Please hold me accountable! So my e-mail reads something like this:

Hey Jen*,

I've been getting that rebuke a lot - that is, to see and treat brothers as brothers. It's been a process that's been taking me many years, and I've been getting a lot better, but I still struggle. I'm just really assertive, aggressive, and outgoing, so it's unnatural for me to chill out sometimes, haha. Also, often times, my self-esteem is based upon who views me as a potential.

Can you please keep me in your prayers? Please pray that:

• I will not think that it's okay for me to treat brothers and sisters the same - since I'm really outgoing and friendly, I should be extra careful to treat guys as brothers.
• I will be very alert of my boundaries with guys. I have been really careful with physical boundaries (i.e., not giving them hugs, not punching their arm, not pushing them away playfully, etc.), but I need to be more careful with emotional, verbal (i.e., being intentional with my words), and temporal (i.e., not talking to them for a long time, not gchatting with them late at night) boundaries.
• I view myself through God's eyes, so that my self-esteem will be based on Him

humbled,

me

* The name has been changed to protect the person's identity