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My father has this uncanny ability to get to the root of every issue. I believe God used my father's intelligence and logic to turn me back to Christ during winter break of my Junior year in college (please let me know if you would like to hear that story sometime). Last night, I believe God used my father again to face my fear head-on.

After asking me seemingly countless questions, I finally screamed out with frustration, "Because I'm scared! I'm scared that I'll never get married! I know I should trust God, but it doesn't help that I'm getting older and older... I feel like other girls are snatching up all the good guys!"

He had asked me why I am praying about celibacy and why I want to commit my life to a demanding career in Finance. I guess a part of me knew that I was scared, but I was also too scared to admit that I was scared -- almost as if admitting my fear would make my fear real. Furthermore, I have been telling myself that, as a 26 year old, I have at least another couple years to stay single. Not to mention, words like "snatching up" were never in my vocabulary, so I was shocked by my own words.

My dad then asked me what would happen in an ideal world. I said that if I had no limitations, I would start dating now and get married next year. My dad asked me why I am studying for the CFAs, instead of spending that time being socially active. He said that was like asking God for something and then not giving God any opportunity to answer my prayers.